YetAgain,It'sSunday;..

Now I've left college it's weird the things I miss. I miss the daily day to day routine of seeing the same people and talking the everyday nonsense "How are you?" "How was your weekend?" etc. The thing I hate the most is when I saw my girls from college today and they asked how was my summer, there was nothing to answer. I went on holiday in England, turned 18, had a party and worked. Sometimes, I wish I had gone to Uni or booked a trip all around the world, I know what I want to do in the future and I kinda have a back up plan but what do I do for now? It's not like I want adventure as I feel I can still find it in the smallest corners of my village and I don't feel the need to leave it. But I don't know what I want? Or what to do?

My mind is like a forest, the mist has gone and I'm just walking down a gravel path. Everything is very vivid and I can see where I am going. So I just keep walking, the sun is shining brightly in the sky and It's just another ordinary everyday day. Suddenly I come to a waterfall or a lake and I'm stood there thinking, shall I jump in? I know it would be fun but what about when I get out, I'd be soaking wet and freezing cold. But is it worth it? On one hand I could dry off in the sun and swim for a little bit in the water and then carry on? Or even turn back or try a different route? But on the other hand I'm not bothered about only following this route but I know I will have to turn off soon although I feel safe here but I know you can't be safe forever. Every change is major risk and sometimes we need the change. But what worries me is not being able to go back, staying with the safe option is the safest and best thing to do for the moment...I think. x