You'veComeALongWayBaby;..

It's strange when you see how everything was two years ago and how you're not like that now. What's even stranger is that I know who my friends would be and what I'd be doing as well. I know it would be the safer route, the route my parents would be proud of. Having it offered back to me and not wanting it anymore, is unbelievable. Seeing people live like I used to, safely, in a routine and thinking through the consequences of every little move is heartbreaking. Especially as I have no clue where I'll be in 10 years, 30 years or even tomorrow, and that doesn't worry or upset me at all. The worse part being that I didn't wanna be this person two years ago, I would have done anything to avoid it and now just to accept it and start to like it, it's a miracle. x