BlogByTheBeach;..

Okay, so I know I'm holiday and I shouldn't be on my 'gadgets' but the weather is terrible! Anyways, last night I couldn't sleep and that therefore resulted in a lot of thinking. For example, even though I detested college, it has boosted my confidence so much, yesterday whilst working I went over to a customer to take their order but also had a full on conversation with them, which a year a go, I would have just kept my head down. I've also decided that I am proud of every single one of my friends. I'm proud of Becky and her determination in achieving her mountain climbing dream. I'm proud of Sofi and the way she has managed everything so maturely lately and how she always keeps a smile on her face. And then you came across my mind. And that actually disappointed me as I started to think things over and even though I see you more now, I still preferred the older memories. I hate the way we've swapped roles and you confine in me, and I now don't tell you anything. I hate this new person you've invent as cliché as it is going to sound, I miss the old you. Before, I thought it was just a bit of harmless flirting but now I see how it all it is, how I'm just going to be number 5 on your tally chart, and tbh I'd rather be number 0 then number 5. I was very confused after I saw you as I thought it would be like old times but now I relise it can't be as we are two completely different people from 2 years ago. And tbh, I know I now have the faults which you dislike in me, but I think I like this new Katherine. And you definitely have the faults which I dislike in you, but are happy with the new you? Are you happy with this new face you are now wearing? Please tell me once you know as I miss the old you and I think other people are starting to now as well. x