ApologeticAssignment;..

So where to go now? After even confronting you with what I thought, I was still wrong. It's weird how I don't let big things effect me whereas the littlest things effect me in the biggest ways. I wish I could be less emotional and pretend that what you said didn't hurt but I'm not gonna lie, it was like a knife wound. And I wouldn't say to the heart or to the back, but maybe to the head? Like a massive wake up call, I didn't really explain my point thoroughly did I? I don't miss being you're number one girl, I understand that situations and people change, I think I miss what we had and the fact that no one new has come along to take your place whereas mine was filled a long time ago. I feel that maybe we are just too close now and that isn't good for us, I enjoy not talking to you for a two weeks/ a month and then having a four hour conversation with you. Maybe that's the way our friendship operates? We should argue less as that's when things get twisted, and now neither of us are afraid to voice our own opinion and we both are far too stubborn. I didn't mean you were 'fake' but just different from what I knew you as, I love the way you can now open up to me more, and I hope that I can adopt your example and follow through. I'm so sorry that I couldn't say this or text this but this is how I honestly feel now I've thought it over a million and one times. I'm sorry. x